I SHALL BELIEVE

We are alone with no excuses. Man is free to write the script for his own life. He can blame no one else if his life is a poor performance.

Jean Paul Sartre


Are we free to make our own choices in life , or are our decisions always limited by the rules of society? Society no doubt plays a very important part in everyone’s life , where you grow up, to which religion you belong to, all play a major part in our lives. They have a big influence on us and we knowingly or unknowingly are influenced by it in big ways. Schooling and the social institutions do imprison a person’s mind and spirit and so does so many other things .Our society is build on beliefs left on by people. Mind is a very tricky thing you know, if you keep it dormant for sometime, you become complacent to the new ideas , innovations. Even if you want to believe in something, your mind will tell you otherwise. This is how our society is , they don’t want to accept anything new for they are afraid it might change the flow of their lives ,that it might effect the little things they are holding onto ,its like they don’t wanna open their eyes for they are afraid they might encounter something they have been running from. People will be the same no matter what place , they will always be people who try to oppose your thinking , your progress ….. will always try to bring you down and that’s the way the things are in this life. You will not get support if you want to try out something new or bring about a change.....believe me when I say never , sometimes you might meet like minded people but other wise the chances of you traveling on a smooth road are bleak , very bleak. We are traveling on a lonesome road. I do believe that if situations were a little bit favorable , people would dare to do more innovative stuff and live their lives freely without any restraints from the society. Instead of running from their lives people just need to be true to them selves and stop lying . Sometimes situations are so unfavorable that even when you want something very badly ,you cant proceed with it .Sometime conditions are very bad and might make you lead the kind of life you didn’t want to but had to because it was the need of the hour.

But in spite of all the obstacles we face or hurdles …”WE” have to jump over them , it is we who have the power who do it. No one else can do what we can because there is only one me and one you. It is me and you and no one else that lives our lives and it is we who decide what to do with it.No matter how many problems we have , or bad situations we get ourselves into we should still keep on going and even if we stop we cant give the excuses that my parents were not into it or the society didn’t accept it .People will always try to stop us , inhibit us from doing what we can do but we are not meant to accept defeat so easily . E.E. Cummings once wrote; To be nobody but yourself in a world which is doing it's best, night and day, to make you everybody else, means to fight the hardest battle, which any human being can fight, and never stop fighting.

Life is supposed to be hard and what measures our time here is that after taking so many blows from the so called problems we are still able to move on and face it head on. I agree with Jean Paul Sartre that man is a free spirit and is responsible for his own defeats and wins and I know that society or the situations or the people aren’t always on our side but that shouldn’t stop us from being who we are because god made us free and we are meant to be that way no matter what comes. Ayn Rand once wrote . Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark in the hopeless swaps of the not quite, the not yet, and the not at all ….Do not let the hero in your soul perish in lonely frustration for the life you deserved and have never been able to reach. The world you desire can be won. It exists. It is real. It is possible. It is yours.


There is no better way to end this :

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.


In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeoning of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.
Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find me, unafraid.


It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.


- Invictus, William Ernest Henley

NOTHING LEFT TO SAY BUT GOODBYE

All of us want things to be perfect….but we never get what we really want…..at least I dont ( remember the song you don’t always get what you want but you do get what you need by rolling stones...life’s kinda like that). Sometimes you care about someone so much that you are so afraid that person might get hurt by anything starting from the most trivial to the most important things. In such cases we do things in a safe mode and try to bring about the so called perfect ness. But does there exist anything in this world that is “Perfect”. I don’t know and frankly from all the experiences I have had I don’t care anymore.In my pursuit for perfect ness and to make everything alright I forgot one of the most important things that was to enjoy each and every moment of it and just let it be but I guess I thought else wise and messed up . It’s like that you don’t want to give up on something you have worked so hard on ….dedicated almost everything you had but is just doesn't amount to anything then letting it go is the best option you have( it's the only option you have).Most people facing such situations get disappointed ….they get frustrated. Most of the people I have met in my life say they never got what they actually wanted.They tried and put in their best efforts and tried more but it just didn't work out. Some were bitter about it and some moved on and some regretted their actions.Regret comes in all shapes and sizes .We regret our decisions , our thoughts and everything that didn’t go well .Some regrets are smaller like when we say something bad or do a bad thing , for a good reason .Some are bigger , like when we let down some one who counted on us more than anything .Some of us escape the jaws of regret by making the right choice( I don’t even know if something like a right choice actually exists). Some of us have little time for regret , because we want to look forwards towards the future.Sometimes we fight to come in terms with the past ( this ain’t always pretty). And sometimes we bury the regrets by promising to change. But the biggest regrets are not things we did. …but the things we didn’t do ….which we should have done but kept on thinking whether it was right or not ,only to realize it was the only right thing to do. What if it didn’t workout …your job , your relationship ….your life....what are you going to do? When such situations in life comes rushing at you out of the darkness, what will you choose to do….will you get up and fight it out or lose your way in the darkness. The important thing in life is not to get bitter over life’s disappointments. We have to learn to let go of the past and realize that everyday wont be sunny and when you find yourself lost in the darkness of despair, remember it’s only in the black of night you see stars and those stars lead you home.So now, I say let’s move on .I know it’s easier said than done but if you keep on hanging to the past which should never have happened the way it did, it will gain on you and it’s going leave you in a mess and it’s really going to be even more tougher than before. Well, a new day is dawning , the sun is rising after killing the darkness , so let’s bid the past goodbye and Roll on and let's make up for the lost time .....coz hey shit happens!!!! you just gotta learn to roll with it.